Friday, August 22, 2008

The God of Nahum

Since I was a little girl I have struggled with fear. I still do now but to a different degree, and it has only seemed to intensify with the birth of my daughters. I'm not afraid at all during the day, but as soon as I lay my head on my pillow at night, I am plagued by fears, worries and anxiety. It is most always about evils in the world, and vivid imaginings of anything happening to my girls. Sometimes it gets bad enough that I need to wake my husband. Sometimes prayer doesn't work because I am not trusting my God. I don't like this.

Well last night was no exception and I started to worry, but thankfully I was able to pray and sleep overwhelmed me quite quickly. Alas, I awoke this morning to read my Bible and I was completely blessed by my God, the God of Nahum.

In this book Nahum prophesied about God's imminent judgement on Nineveh as they refused to repent. Known for the cruelty with which they treated other nations, God would now punish them and Judah could rejoice for this notorious people was about to fall. In the final verse of this book, after God has destroyed them, Nahum writes to the Ninevites, "There is no easing your hurt; your wound is grievous. All who hear the news about you clap their hands over you. For upon whom has not come your unceasing evil."

Now, my thoughts were neither novel nor profound, but I met with my God this morning and he gave me much comfort, and much to cling to for hope.

As I read of God's intense anger and vengeance and wrath against Nineveh, I was so quickly and humbly reminded once again that God hates wickedness and evil more than I do. God destroyed this nation because of their evil, because he hated it! Nineveh was cruel and unrepentant and this fact did not go unnoticed by God. They seemed to prosper for a time, but God was still sovereign and God would not let them continue in their ways.

So often when I lay awake at night, my flesh tells me the lie that if God hated the evils in this world as much as me, he would not allow them at all. But when I read Scripture I see clearly that this is not the case, but is in fact quite the opposite. I may not know all the details and intricacies of God's sovereign will, nor understand why he works the way that he does, but I know that he is good, and he loves goodness and kindness, and hates sin and iniquity.

In the first chapter of Nahum, when God's wrath and anger are being depicted, his goodness and slowness to anger are also woven right into this picture. His anger at sin and his goodness are not separated, but are so uniquely intertwined:
"The LORD is a jealous and avenging God; the LORD is avenging and wrathful; the LORD takes vengeance on his adversaries and keeps wrath for his enemies. The LORD is slow to anger and great in power, and the LORD will by no means clear the guilty." (Nahum 1:2-3)
God's ways are good and he is for those who take refuge in him (Nahum 1:7). By God's grace, when I lay down to sleep tonight, the words of the Psalmist will comfort me, "Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam, though the mountains tremble at its swelling" (Psalm 46: 2-3).

2 comments:

MM said...

I found your blog through an article of your husband's that Amy linked to at humblemusings. Whew! Enough of an introduction!

Anyway, I wouldn't normally comment except that I could have written the first paragraph of your post myself, many times over. I have three little ones, and fear is something I have battled severely since my first son was born. It was encouraging to read your post about it... to hear of another mom struggling with the same thing yet putting her hope in God. The Lord still allows me to fight fear on and off (I believe to keep me humble) but I have begun to see great progress in this area in the past year. One thing that is true... when I have been in the trenches with this particular sin, I have yearned for and reached out to God more than any other time in my life. He has drawn me to His bosom through my utter dependance on Him in my desperation for peace in my mind and heart.

Keep fighting... He is conforming you to the Lord Jesus in each and every moment that you choose Him over your fears. Psalm 4:8 says "In peace I will both lie down and sleep, for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety."

What a testimony you have given to the God of Nahum in the midst of your struggle against fear! Thank you for sharing. :)

Unknown said...

mm...Thanks so much for your comment! I was really encouraged to hear of God's grace in your life as you battle these things as well. There is definitely something of comfort to know that I am not the only one facing these struggles. I wouldn't wish them on anyone else :), but it is so uplifting to hear of God's grace to others who face similar fears.

Thanks for encouraging me to keep fighting as well! It is a good reminder that that is what I must do...Preach to my heart, words of truth about my good and sovereign God...and battle the sin that remains in my heart, tempting me to not trust in Him. I really appreciate your words.

There is a really good book out by Ed Welch, called Running Scared that deals with fear, worry and anxiety. I'm not all the way through it but it is amazing so far. I thought you might be interested if you didn't already know of it.

Thanks again!